Sugar fail

So trying to go cold turkey on sugar was a total disaster.

It was my first day volunteering for this local non-profit that teaches healthy cooking to children and single mothers/low income families. It's a little ironic considering how much of a problem I have with food, but it feel like its a good way for me to use my culinary education, make an impact, and be mindful of what I'm eating.  Anyway so I did my first class (Garden to Table) and felt okay for most of the morning, and then once the class was over around 1:30 I just felt everything start to crumble.

I met my mom at one of my favorite bagel places for lunch, and didn't want to eat anything. My poor mom was like, "what?! You don't want to eat?" I just sipped an unsweetened iced tea and excused myself for a 10 minute bowel explosion in the bathroom. I was sweaty, tired, cranky, nauseous - it was like I had a really terrible flu.

I came home and tried to rest, but it just got worse. There was the easy way to fix it, and I admit it, I succumbed. I had a can of baked beans -ugh a whole can of high fructose corn syrup. And then I felt fine again. Maybe a slower weaning off of sugar is the way to go.

This morning I made my first smoothie (of many). 

(Serves 2)

10 tbsp organic whey protein (5 tbsp is one serving)

5 big strawberries

Handful of blueberries

2 kale leaves

1.5 cups 2% milk

1 tbsp agave syrup

Lots of ice

Tomorrow I'm going to try it with organic hemp protein and more kale and blueberries. David really liked it, and I have to admit the flavor wasn't bad. Not chalky at all. Need to pick up some bananas.

-----consultation is today!------

Nervous and excited! Seeing Dr. T this afternoon, and finding out if I can have the surgery. I hope the fact that I gained weight since the seminar doesn't hurt my chances! I gave up smoking so hopefully they'll understand the gain. 

Dr. T seemed really nice at the seminar, and very forthright. He was upfront about the risks and possible complications. I have a lot of questions for him, including :

1. Does he want me to start the pre surgery diet today? Because I totally fuckin will.

2. Will I leave the hospital with a drain?

3. Is my acid reflux a problem?

4. Can he write me a prescription for birth control?

5. When do I need to pay in full by?

6. Can I get a cash discount?

7. What can I do to reduce loose skin?